guys,


am i turning my back to everything that i've gone through? to all those memories? am i being snobbish? am i??

if i am. i am so sorry. how could i've ever forgotten those moments. im not a good person anyway. trying to be one. still trying but i could not change so fast kan?

friends are like someone who would always be there. somehow,at once i thought that i couldnt trust anybody. well, to all those things i've been through, its not easy to just trust someone. its just me and my own world. and somehow, i learn that the world is not only about me. and i couldnt bear to stand alone. do u believe in the sayings goes "winners stands alone"? at first i do.now. i dont. its either you need someone. or someone needs you. you'll be strong as one when you're all together.

question : where can you find such person? someone said that people is happy when they see you sad. true? idk..

well im talking generally. maybe. JUST maybe. there are such friends who are really 'friends'. get what i mean..? its just maybe i dont see. or is it just me being blind. or it happens for me to go through things alone. scary and hurtfull enough though

or maybe.. im being too secretive..? i guess. pretending you're okay when you're not is really not okay.